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Why don't we talk about it?

Why don't we talk about mental illness? Why are we so ashamed of having such an illness? I'm not ashamed. The reason being is because I don't have control of it that is probably why I try to control every other aspect of my life. My husband doesn't get that. Many people don't get it because they can't see it on test or a lab report you don't have it. Well sorry to break it to you. I have and millions of others do too. I can't control it. I want to. I used to have a grasp on it. A really good one. Boy did I lose that battle. I wish I still had that hold. Maybe my life wouldn't be in such chaos. I think about that day.....I call domes days. I got the call that my mom had cancer. I had to keep a straight face she was sitting right next to me. My heart sank. How do you tell the person you love so much they have cancer? Then on top of the I felt this feeling that I hadn't felt on so long a low and sadness. Boy where did this all come from? People don
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How Do You Keep Such a Secret?

As a mother of 3 girls, you always feel like you have to be on point.  Everyone has their kids in something whether it be in dance or soccer.  I always felt the need to keep up with the Jones'. But why?  Society has made it so hard to be a parent everyone is always judging you on how you are doing this or that.  Why can't we be supportive anymore. Everyday I wake up and as hard as it is I get up and get my girls ready for school.  I have to get up at least 30 mins before my girls do just so I can make sure I'm actually up before they are.  I need that time to talk to myself so I can get up.  My struggle is real.  The mental struggle is real.  Many mother's may not even be able to get up.  I'm in school full time trying to achieve my degree that I never finished.  I want to show my daughter's that even with any kind of struggle you can finish what you started.  The reality is that being honest with our children is a hard pill to swallow.  My girls do understa
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A Mother's Secret

As a mother things can be so hard.  Your kids can try your patience like no one can.  What people don't ever talk about is the mother's who have it double hard.  The mom's who also have an illness or who also suffer from a mental illness.  It's faux pas now.  We have to have these perfect lives for social media. The perfectly clean house and craft these amazing lunches for our children. I'm lucky I can get out of bed.  I have Bi-polar disorder, depression and anxiety.  I've had all of these disorders since I was 15.  They have put me on all kinds of medication.  I went through a lot of hard times.  I finally found a time where I didn't needs any medication.  And now that I have hit a rough patch, its times for me to explore the the medication again.  Mom's have it rough, don't get me wrong dad's do too. However, the father's aren't the ones that have the babies they don't suffer the postpartum, or have the carry the child for 9
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